What got me thinking about all of this? Well as I sit here on the couch, I feel helpless! I'm trying to keep the dogs from barking at every sound they hear. I'm trying to keep the fan on high, the heat on low and the volume of the television down. I'm sitting not 5 feet from Diane and she is completely laid out! She awoke today and had so much pain that she could not even keep her eyes open. Two hours later, she awoke again and it was worse. The meds that usually help her, are doing nothing and only by the grace of God did her clients from Canada cancel the meeting until tomorrow! There is nothing that I can do to help her, nothing that I can do to ease her pain but sit here and be ready to jump if she needs or wants anything. As I went to bed last night, I could not help but think that things were really looking up and our luck was turning and the endless hard work we have done is finally paying off. I felt so good that last night while at the gas station picking up a pack of smokes, I actually bought a lottery ticket! I know there is not a pedophile in prisons chance of winning, but hey, for a little while, it was nice to feel hope again! So now as I sit here and write this it got me thinking about that fucking roller coaster again! If there is anyone on earth who deserves better or easier than this, it is certainly Diane! I wonder what it is that keeps her going? What is it that makes her not just curl up and give up the fight? What is the force that drives her to carry on through the pain, the heartache, the loss, the sadness and sometimes the full on misery? In her own words, "it's the good things, the good times"! She can pull the strength from those and use them to carry her until the next "good times or the good thing" comes along! She is amazing!
There were some great things this year as well. Let me see if I can find a few to reflect on. I got to ride on my first Big Mountain Run and it was stellar. Mailman loaned me his bad ass ol' shovelhead and we rode and rode. I got to ride some of the most beautiful roads in the country and spend some down time with some of the finest people that I know!
Mother nature, who is apparently going through her changes, became an awful bitch one day and quite literally knocked my dick in to the dirt! This was the day that everyone in Arizona and around the world became familiar with the term "HABOOBHaboob 2011 was like nothing I had ever before seen! Very rarely does the word EPIC truly fit but in this case no other word comes even close. I will never forget the day a 7 thousand foot high, 300 mile wide wall of dirt and debris overcame us in a matter of moments!
Our community lost so many special people like Kenny Lucas from Knockout Motorcycles, the one and only Million Miles Squire, Kenny Panda Roeher amongst countless others. This has been a really tough year for losses! Not to mention the family members that left us this year as well.
I picked up a few murder sickles this year to sit along with the Knuck in the garage and keep her company when we aren't riding. Hey, no one wants to be alone right? First was the FXRS that came to be known and earned the name the Pickle Sickle on a round trip to California.
Over the year of 2011, I had the great pleasure officiating (that means marrying) the ceremonies of quite of a few friends. Two of those stick out in my mind and will forever stick in my heart, each for their very own reasons. First, I got to marry my friends in the one and only OK CORRAL in Tombstone, Az. I don't care who you are or what you are in to, that is just plain bad ass! Late in the year, I got to marry a few friends in what was simply one of the most beautiful weddings I've ever seen. At the end, we re-released wild owls back to the wild. They had been rescued and rehabilitated by other friends.
More than anything though, what made this year so good was the time I got to spend around the people that I love, respect and admire! Although that crazy roller coaster took us to career highs and epic lows with the loss of so many friends and fellow bike folks, we are still here to talk about life, right? Like pilots always say, "any landing you can walk away from is a good landing"! Looking back on the year, Diane agrees, one of the very best things was the single DAISY that popped up in to our garden! We will just keep putting fertilizer on it and never ever pull it! That ONE Daisy will stay!
So roll up your sleeping bag, fill up your back pack, strap it on, get on your MURDER SICKLE and ride my friends! It is the only advice that I can offer to you! After all, those crazy deathtraps are what brought us all together, how bad can they be?
Oh yeah, Holy shit, how could I forget, in 2011 my dear friend, Ms. Pinky Pancake turned me in to Jackshitus Christ!
Keep the wind in your face,
Tits in your back
and The Man off your ass!