KARMA AIN'T ALWAYS A BITCH !

As you guys know, I picked up that FXRS last week.  As you guys may also know that modern bikes aren't really my style.  The problem with runin old iron is the wear and tear that it puts on them.  Running a nice day ride and putting two hundred miles on her is a good day.  Once you get going and you begin to hit in the 3 and 4 hundred mile mark on the odometer not only does your ass begin to hurt but your brain starts drifting in to the what if scenarios?  What if running hard at 85-90 mph is just more than this old girl was really ever meant to handle?  Now that I am 250 miles out in the middle of the desert, what the hell do I do if I need parts for a 64 year old bike?  Although nearly every time my old girl makes these trips loud and proud that worrisome little bug still gnaws away in the back of my brain.  Sometimes you need to hit the miles hard and make both time and distance and doing it on a knucklehead isn't the best option. 

So I got this FXRS to take over the duty of the "road bike".  A bike that I can just hop on without any real worries and go bang out 500 miles at 100 mph and still no that not only will I not be pissing blood but maybe I can even walk when I get where I am going!  The problem is that right now this particular bike is not really set up for this type of riding.  I have always been a real fan of the FXRT and P because of the fixed fairing and the tour packs.  The funny thing is that when these bikes came out nobody wanted them because they looked too much like jap bikes.  Now, good luck finding the parts for all this shit! 

That is where the title of the post comes in to play.  As you guys know from my other writings, I am always there for others, without fail.  I have never, not once in my life, fucked anyone over and I can say that with 100 percent certainty.  My family, like a great many in America these days finds ourselves fighting the good fight to survive.  The bills are big and the income at times quite small.  Add to that the insane cost of a family dealing with illness and most months there is just not an extra penny to be had.  I often ask, when is this shit going to turn around for us?  The old saying, if it weren't for bad luck, I'd have none at all seems more and more to be more than an old saying but more like my personal motto!  We have amazing Karma, good pure Karma, when will it come back around on us?  Well it appears that it may be doing just that.  Are things swinging our way?  Seems that since getting this bike, so many people have reached out to me with part after part to try and help me get the bike set up for doing some long hard miles.  I get calls like, I got this and I got that and all you have to do is come and pick it up... When I ask what they want for the parts, they just say, I didn't offer to sell them to you, I said, COME PICK THEM UP!  Then you got a guy like Roadside Marty, check out his blog, www.flatbrokecustoms.blogspot.com and check out the amazing bikes he builds.  Who calls me now nearly each day now to tell me of another part that he has found for me.  I could go on and on with stories like this that have been happening all week.  I am blown away.  All of this just so that my friends can help get me back in the wind.  Touched and humbled doesn't come nearly close to how I am feeling about this all.

I don't know if my good Karma has finally come full circle and has worked it's way back to me so I try not to question it!  But here is the way that my sick mind has grown to work over the years.  I am that guy who has gotten so screwed over, so abused by the system that I am conditioned to just expect the worst!  So now as each of these good things begin to happen for both myself and my family, I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Is this a tease?  Seems that each time I take one step forward, I get pushed 3 steps back.  No matter what, I knuckle up, keep my chin down and keep on fighting, giving up is not in the cards but it does make me wonder.  Is the Universe fucking with me again.  Is it giving me a little taste of good, just so it can haul off and kick me in the balls again?  I don't know the answer to this and I guess only time will tell what it is going to be.  When I know, you will too! 

My wife asks me why I am not happy about the way things are going?  I tell her it's not that I am not happy, I am just worried that on the scale of the good that is happening to us lately, I just worry that the scale of bad that usually follows may be worse than ever!  For now, I am coming to grips with the good.  I am not a taker, I am a giver.  Nothing warms my heart more than helping  someone out or being able to give an amazing gift to someone, but to this day I find it very difficult to accept gifts and nice gestures.  For me, it is definitely better to give than receive!  But I could really get use to good things happening as long as it's not the Universe setting me up for another practical joke.....  oh well, these were just my thoughts as I sit here tonight, once again after midnight trying to figure out the meaning of life and once again finding no answers.  I guess after living through bad for so long, I am conditioned to not only expect it, but to accept it.  I believe if you don't get yourself all worked up with hope, you won't be disappointed when you don't get it!  It is nice to see things turning around, I just can't remember how to deal with good things, I am just so use to the bad!

I hope that these tough times turn around for each and every single one of us.  Keep putting up the good fight, it has to pay off in the end right?